It has begun!

Guys, guys, guys! I got my camera! I’ve only had it for a few hours but I already love it – and as I had suspected, my beautiful German Shepherd dog is becoming a fabulous model for me! I get the feeling that my Instagram account will be filled with her… Oh well!

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

I am going to upload some of the better shots I have of her onto Instagram in a bit, but as it’s snowing in several areas near me I might head out and see what pictures I can get of the weather! Even if it’s dark and cold, I know it will be worth it! I’m aware that a lot of the photos I take might not be too great, but I am just a beginner so they will get better – I hope anyway…

I hope everyone is enjoying the weather they have, snow or no snow. I personally love all things ice and snow so its like heaven for me! I honestly don’t remember the last time I was this happy!

Have a wonderful night guys!

~FoxQueen

Not About Me

Hello all, how is everything for you?

I know I go on about it a lot so I’ll make this short; my camera is now on its way! I haven’t even received it yet but I’m already incredibly happy about it, is that strange? I also can’t stop thinking of ideas for when I do have it in my possession; places to go, styles to try out… I get the feeling I annoy everyone with how much I talk about it, but I haven’t been this excited in a very long time; doesn’t everyone have that one thing that makes them all giddy and makes them sound really obsessed..?

Moving swiftly on before I bore you to death; I have more good news, although this doesn’t really apply to me. My S/O is an athlete – a pretty good one at that – and without going into too much detail, the good news is that in his most recent competition he has not only achieved a new Personal Best, he is also currently joint 5th in the entire United Kingdom for that event! Possibly even number 1 in Wales, although I’m not 100% sure about that (he is part Welsh, just to clarify, and competes for Wales in some competitions). I’m just so proud of him! He had such a rough year in 2016 and was hardly able to compete at all, so this is a huge comeback for him.

I am aware I don’t talk about my S/O often (if I did, I’d probably never shut up about him) but it’s only because there have been incidents in the past where I have shared something about him – be it a picture or some information – and certain hateful people who wanted to hurt me, used it on order to do so. I’m not saying any of you lovely people would, I’m just being cautious, you understand? If I ever get over my paranoia, I will probably open up a lot more; whether that’s a good or bad thing has yet to be seen…

Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful evening ahead of you!

~FoxQueen

In Motion

Hey guys, how are you all?

It’s been such a hectic week that I simply didn’t have enough time (or energy) to post, I do apologise.

Now onto the good news! As well as losing 3lbs in the last few days because I finally got my butt into gear and actually started using my gym membership (yes, I am actually proud of that so please don’t rain on my parade), I  have finally found a camera that I have practically fallen in love with; I’m going to a shopping centre on Tuesday (it would have been tomorrow but, work, ugh) to buy it then I can finally begin my journey to happiness! Yeah, that’s cheesy, I’ll rethink that title… But either way, YEY!

I’ve even gained a few followers on my new Instagram account – even though I haven’t posted much on it, just a couple of drawings; if you would like to do so also, the account name is foxqueenblog (I had to stick to the theme didn’t I?) so please have a look and if you’d like to follow me please do and I thank you sincerely! As soon as I purchase my camera the account will be much more active I assure you – and don’t be surprised if my dog features in some of the photos. She’s rather photogenic!

Once again I’d like to say thanks to anyone reading this, I honestly appreciate you listening to all of my babble! I can’t imagine it’s particularly interesting.

I hope everyone has had a wonderful day!

~FoxQueen

Heartache

Hey everyone.

It’s 5:30am here and once again I can’t sleep. It’s my fault this time, I was talking to an old friend of mine from school a few hours ago and we got all nostalgic; decided it would be a great idea to find some old pictures and reminisce. How wrong we were.

Yes, at the start it was fun – finding silly photos of us at school and screenshots of conversations of us being stupid, it was a good laugh. Until it wasn’t. See, looking at old pictures is all well and good but it’s both a blessing and a curse. It helps remind you of memories that were long forgotten, good times with friends and family and all that, yeah. But at the same time you find pictures of those who you don’t want to remember. Of people who hurt you. Of times that you don’t want to recall. Screenshots of conversations you wish you never had.

My friend? Found pictures of her old best friend before they had a major falling out and no longer spoke to one another, as well as pictures of a dear relative of hers who has sadly passed away. She was in tears before she went to sleep tonight.

As for me, well… Not only did I also find pictures of a very close relative who has passed, but also pictures of people I once loved who betrayed me. Screenshots of conversations I had with people I cared about who ended up leaving, or fights I had with people. I no longer recall why I saved them in the first place but there they were. Some of the people in those photos I thought would always be by my side no matter what. And they all left. Even my first love, whom was my best friend long before and after we got together; he walked out of my life a few nights ago, saying things that hurt me quite badly. I don’t want to remember him. At all. Because stuff like that hurts too much. And that doesn’t just apply to him, it’s all of them. Every single one of the people in those pictures or videos or screenshots is no longer here, in one way or another, and it’s hard for me to think about them.

As happy as I am that I did find a couple of good memories hidden in the masses of bad ones, the heartache I am currently experiencing is far from worth it. Some treasured photos I thought I had lost for good were found, finally, however that was the only good thing to come from this.

I hope everyone else had a much better night than I.

~FoxQueen